A BEE BUTT, BUZZING AND ITCHING

          Just look at that cute little bee butt in the middle of the squash blossom. I noticed this when I was watering and pulled out my phone and took several photos. It wasn’t exactly a nice day so I don’t know if the bee was hunkered down, she did move around, waiting for a ray of sunshine or not. Since this is a delicata squash and I love them, I’m hoping this little bee will make the plant grow a yummy squash.

          I got up this morning (Saturday), speaking of bees, with a bee in my bonnet as my grandma used to say. I tried to ignore it by watering everything, beginning the laundry, cleaning up the kitchen which hadn’t been touched since Thursday, checking my bank accounts and paying the pending bills. Still, the buzzing hasn’t stopped. If anything, it’s gotten worse, especially after checking my accounts and finding they’ve just about grown back to where they were before the pandemic slide.

          The buzzing has to do with BUYING SOMETHING!!!! I want to go shopping!!! I want to go online and buy whatever I find that I feel like I really want. There’s only one big problem with this, well, maybe two. First, there is absolutely not a thing that I need…zip, zero, zilch.

Secondly, maybe thirdly, my closet is full of clothes, more than half of which I hardly ever wear. If I took all those out, the closet would be almost empty. My house is full of all kinds of stuff, most of which I thought I’d be waving farewell to at the big garage sale I thought I’d have in August…now moved to the weekend after Labor Day weekend if it happens in 2020 at all. Even then, it will be the garage stuff, not all the stuff in the house.

So, I’m itching to buy SOMETHING NEW!!! I just wish the buzzing and itching would give me a direction with regard to what I could buy. I suppose it’s actually more the wanting to go shopping than it is actually acquiring a new shirt or pot or knick-knack. And it’s not like I spent a huge amount of time shopping before the pandemic because I didn’t.

I think what I truly want is to be able to get in my car…or someone else’s…and go to the mall (is it even open???) and wander around with that someone looking at stuff and debating its positive and negative points. Going into the dressing room sounds like a lot of fun as opposed to the agony it used to be. How great to put on several new dresses, shorts, shirts, nighties or whatever and gaze at myself in the mirror. Even better would be modeling the items I liked for the someone who was with me and vice versa. To leave the mall with a bag full of new things sounds wonderful.

And, as long as I’m wishing for a day that’s not going to happen, let’s throw in a couple of drinks and lunch (or dinner, depending on how long we shop). My last in restaurant meal was John’s birthday in June and it was really kinda surreal. I didn’t recognize a single waitress/waiter at a place we went fairly regularly and spacing was such that I couldn’t really talk to anyone else who was there for a meal. Still good food in a fairly empty restaurant.

           I don’t remember any dreams from last night that would lead me to feeling like this. It’s just another usual Saturday, i.e., laundry, vacuum, change bed, change dogs’ beds, etc. And yet, I want to call someone, get in my car and go have a day that throws all caution to the wind…I always wonder how that comment came to be…and ends with my feeling wonderful, exhausted, fulfilled and content.

          But no, I won’t be throwing my caution into the wind or anywhere else, no matter how much I want to or how appealing it sounds. Chances are I’d end up with COVID and in the hospital and then the crematorium. Don’t think I’m quite ready for that yet. Besides, how many FB things have I posted/reposted telling people to “ STAY HOME AND/OR WEAR A MASK.” I’d be such a hypocrite.

          Instead, the dryer just dinged, the vacuum is quietly calling my name and all the dust bunnies and motes are hunkering down, hoping I won’t choose to pull out the dusters. Laundry is going to need folding, the bed remade, the dishwasher emptied and the peas I harvested this morning cooked for dinner. Guess it’s just going to be another day just like so many that have gone before. I need to choose to ignore the buzzing and itching for something new. I need to choose to be grateful I’m healthy and able to do all the things that need doing around my own house.

          So going to take off the hearing aids to see if the buzzing stops. Going to use some afterbite on the itches and get on with my day. Still, big sigh, it would be so wonderful to go shopping or do just about anything just for fun. Just for fun that wouldn’t endanger me or anyone else…maybe in 2021.

SORRY...

          as I’ve stated in past posts, now and then, I really don’t have anything to say today. Maybe tomorrow.

BUTTERFLY ON LILY, BOHDI AND VEGETABLES

          Look what came to visit me a couple of weeks ago. I don’t often see these butterflies in my yard. Usually I have smaller white ones that kind of come and go. It didn’t stay long, but both Maryanne and Claudia were able to see and photograph as well since we were doing our deck stay apart lunch.

          I usually have a lot of dragonflies. Until a few years ago, I didn’t realize they came in any color but blue, but then there were several red ones. I tried photographing those too, but even though they stayed perfectly still each time, apparently my camera or my hands weren’t steady enough to get a clear photo.

          Neighbor Dave pulled into my driveway this morning while I was watering my vegetable containers. He was coming back from taking his German Shepherd Bohdi for a swim class or swim therapy. Bohdi and I are great friends, but in the middle of giving him some pets, he suddenly barked…almost scared the pants off me. When I told him to sit, he laid down in the back of the Explorer…he’s too big to be able to sit. He’s the biggest GSD (as his owner refers to him) I have ever seen with the longest hair. Bohdi is a different kind of GSD that doesn’t have the undercoat most GSDs have, just this long looooooooooooooong fur. He’s also the most handsome GSD I’ve ever seen as well. I stole this photo from Dave and wish I had one of Bohdi's face...gorgeous eyes and BIG sharp teeth.

          Unfortunately, Bohdi’s tale was a sad one before he found his forever home. Whoever got him as a puppy didn’t care for him very well for the first couple years of his life. When he was rescued, he’d lost most of his fur, had skin problems and a whole bunch of other stuff that was wrong. In addition, he had never been socialized, so everyone and everything was a threat. His rescue person worked with him for I don’t know how long before my neighbors took him in. The rescue person said she knew Bohdi had found his forever home when he took to both Kim and Dave as soon as he walked in the door. His rescue person also made a video that shows Bohdi as she got him and how he developed after that. As Dave said, it starts out really sad, but ends happy.

          I knew they were getting Bohdi, so when I found out he’d come home, I dashed up there and stuck my hand right into his kennel to pet him. I had no idea he could have taken my hand off with his big mouth and teeth, but I guess he liked me because we’ve gotten along ever since. I’ve even gone to the house when Dave and Kim are running late and let him out to do his bidness. He obeys my commands as well (maybe almost) as he does Dave’s. I always took him dog cookies though too, so maybe that helped.

          Both Dave and Kim have worked hard with Bohdi to get him more socialized and friendly to other people and dogs. My walking partner Kathy was bitten by another dog last year and she’s hesitant around Bohdi, so, of course, he picks up on that and barks and challenges her. He gets in trouble and is reprimanded for his actions, but I think he likes to play the intimidation game with Kathy.

          This is the fourth GSD Dave and Kim have had. Dave always takes the dog for a walk and would come here when John was alive. John would provide the dogs (ours and Dave’s) with a cookie…or two or three…while the guys chatted and yukked it up. Dave walks Bohdi and he says he checks my vegetable pots every day, but I never hear either one of them. One of the previous GSDs always used to come to our porch when he got a chance to run away. I remember we had a horrible lightening storm and somehow the GSD was able to get out. He was terrified and made a beeline for my porch. We dried him off and kept him until he was rescued by his family.

          Anyway, Dave and I talked vegetables. He said his tomatoes flower, but then nothing really happens. I’ve had a number of cherry tomatoes off my hanging pots, and there’s a bunch of green ones developing in the bigger pots. Also, my zucchini has finally decided to produce. I’ve used one and given another one away. I have a few more that are almost ready…or maybe beyond ready…to be plucked from the vine. And, the peas have grown and I’ve already harvested more than enough for one meal and it’s time to do it again.

          Dave’s brother Ken is the real gardener among us, but he told Dave his tomato crop isn’t doing well either and that it’s because we haven’t had enough hot days. I agree with Ken’s opinion and think my success is due only to the black asphalt on which the tomato pots sit. Come Monday, it will be time to fertilize everything again, so hopefully the coming hot days will make everything grow better.

          The Danish and delicata squash aren’t doing much and the pumpkin plants have vined, but I’m not sure any of the punkins resulting from the blooms will be viable because of the weather. When I bought the punkin plants, I thought it would be so fun to grow them and then have Xander come and help me make jack-o-lanterns, but now, that isn’t likely no matter how big the punkins get.

          My Thai basil and Italian basil really seem to like this weather though. They are growing very well. Every time they begin to try to set flowers, I pluck the flower and a couple of the leaves and put them in my salads…pretty yummy. Still, even though I had a difficult time getting to sleep on Monday when it was hot, I’m ready, more than ready really, for summer to show up. So, enough with the onshore flow, the drifting clouds and the sporadic drizzle…let’s have summer NOW!!!

BEE BALM AND ZOO EXPERIENCES

          Bee Balm apparently comes in many colors, at least according to the flower catalogs I get in the mail. I’d like to have some in each color, but I’m going to have to be satisfied with the pink. This is probably the first year in forever I haven’t ordered a single thing from any of the catalogs I receive. I figured why add anything when I’ll be moving, but now I’m wondering if or when that will ever happen.

I do leave the bee balm seed heads over the winter because the birds like them. I also used to have several clumps that were in sort of a row at the edge of the flowerbed, but they’ve migrated into just one clump. It’s funny how some plants get bigger and take over more territory while others consolidate into a smaller space.

Today I’ve decided to write about various animal experiences at Woodland Park Zoo. I was always so careful about asking for favors because I knew how hard everyone worked and now I’m saddened I didn’t take better advantage of my job and position. I could have probably increased my exposure by 100% based on stories I’ve heard from other folks.

This photo is of a male lion which I took quite some time ago. I was invited to and allowed into the Feline House. I wandered around behind the scenes, taking pictures of the various cats. I was hunkered down taking photos of this cat when he suddenly reared up, charged the bars and roared. Did I really need to tell you I fell over on my ass and my heart rate rocketed???

The baby kitties are the absolute best. This is a “secret” photo of one of the tiger cubs. No one was supposed to be around the mom and babies. Mom was off doing something away from her babies and I and another zoo staff person were snuck into the building to take some photos. I so badly wanted to go into the space and pick those kitties up…not allowed as it might make the mom really unhappy. At a later time, I got to go to Animal Health when they were doing an exam on a baby tiger. It was so quiet until about two minutes after it was put back into it’s carry cage to be returned to its mom. It was unbelievably noisy, growling and screaming. I’m surprised the mom couldn’t hear it half way up the zoo. Still, I got to take pictures and how many people actually get to even do that?

When it came to the snow leopards, I got to see/hold the babies twice during my career there. The first time, it seemed to be more of a pity experience because both myself and the other staff person on the experience were being treated for cancer…I survived, she didn’t. That time, it was so hot outside and we had to wear rubber gloves so we couldn’t really feel the kitties. Still, I held one up to my face and felt it’s fur…it wasn’t soft and cuddly, it was coarse and stiff. The second time I went with a couple of other staff people and again, we weren’t allowed to hold the kitties, but we could pet them without wearing gloves. Still great experiences. I also got the chance to be with/touch one in Animal Health. Look at the size of that tail. It was huge and very heavy.

I love the lemurs. The keeper there took a ton of photos of me feeding them, but did I look up even once??? Nope, I was so engrossed in feeding and interacting with them. Amazing.

The zoo doesn’t have elephants any longer and I’d forgotten that John had an opportunity to not only visit the Elephant Barn, but an opportunity to interact with Chai and Baby Hansa. I found this photo which I didn’t remember having. He got the chance because one of the elephant keepers who led our Kenya trip invited him to drop by…so we did.

Jaguars, cannot forget the jaguars. Initially, we had Junior and his mom, but somehow in their playing, he killed his mom. The zoo got new jaguars after that and they had babies. I don’t remember now if these were the first ones or the triplets that came later. In any case, the keeper invited both myself and another staff person to the Tropical Rain  Forest to meet and feed the three babies. We got to give them rolled up turkey meatballs.

Can you find all three

And, the only time I ever got to see a jaguar swim was when the zoo had invited a very important person to come visit. The keeper hung raw chicken from the vines in front of the jaguar exhibit. In order to get the chicken, the jaguar had to get in the water and swim to the glass. So exciting. Also exciting was when the jaguar exhibit opened. Toddlers would walk about right in front of the glass and the jaguar would stalk them…we referred to those toddlers as kidsicles.

Orangutans look so intelligent and yet are so kid-like. They hide beneath their gunnysacks and think we cannot see them, kind of like little kids who think you can’t see them playing peek-a-boo. Just before the orangutan exhibit was to open, I went there to check it out. Towan, the big male, was, I thought, sitting on his sister. There was another zoo staff person there. I told Towan to stop and the staff member informed me they were actually copulating…soooooooo embarrassed. I got the opportunity to hold Towan’s hand in Animal Health during an exam…doesn’t my hand look tiny in his???

There were other opportunities not within zoo grounds. One year, the Board Retreat was held at a donor's home. A woman who works on behalf of cheetahs came and brought her cats. I didn't get to pet them or get very close, but just being THAT close to a cheetah on a leash and taking photos was so special. And, I cannot forget the year the dinosaurs visited for the summer. 

The zoo has been working on behalf of the Western Pond Turtle for ages. I think it was my last year I finally went on a turtle release trip. The eggs are collected, the turtles headstarted at the zoo and once too big to be eaten by a bullfrog (not native to the northwest) they are released in a couple of different spots in Washington and Oregon. Amazing and very important work that's kept these turtles from going extinct.

During my last few months at the zoo, I was given permission to bring my sons and grandchildren to the zoo for special experiences behind the scenes. I’d make arrangements and then we’d, those of us that could, show up. I was and they were so fortunate to be able to encounter so many of the animals on a one-to-one basis, i.e., penguins, giraffe, hippos, grizzlies, orangs, raptors. I’m sure there were others, but I’d need to find the USB drive that holds all the experiences and who knows which one it is in the pile.

A zoo is a wondrous place to work. I feel incredibly lucky to have had Woodland Park Zoo in my neighborhood during my child and young adulthood. I was blessed to have my first job there as well as to end my Executive Assistant career at the zoo. Besides the photos, I have so many memories…all of them good of all the two-legged, four-legged and no-legged animals, human and non that added so much to the tapestry of my life.

WHITE LILIES AND IT'S HOT

          I’d forgotten I have white lilies in my garden. They are finally blooming and smell absolutely delightful. There should be a couple more stalks to enjoy before they are done. The other stargazers are also blooming, but they only have one or two blossoms each. My deck smells especially wonderful in the evening.

          Speaking of my deck, I love spending time out there. The last week, I’ve watered what needed to be watered first thing in the morning. Then I made my breakfast and ate it at the table on my deck. The birds flit about, sing songs, dragonflies visit and the sound of the water in my little water feature is so enjoyable. The doggies hang about hoping I’ll save them a nibble or at least drop something they can scramble to eat.

          When it isn’t terribly hot, I like to sit in my hammock swing with my I-pad and read or play the Hidden City game. Again, all my senses are engaged for the most part, i.e., hearing, seeing, feeling, but it’s mostly the hearing sense that brings the most pleasure. Of course, I do like the swinging part too, and at times can almost nod off into a little nap.

          How did you sleep Monday night? It was so hard to fall asleep because I was so hot. It didn’t matter that I’d all the windows open and left my bedroom door open, there wasn’t a breeze. I kept moving from one side of the bed to the other. When one side got hot, the other side would be cool. But it’s really hard to go to sleep when I’m rocking and rolling on the bed. I finally took my nighty off and eventually went to sleep in just my undies. It was about 5:30 am when I woke up to use the bathroom, put my nightie back on and pulled just the sheet up over me.

          In years past, by this time I’ve hooked up the air conditioner in the living room. John believed 69 degrees and cloudy was the perfect temperature and couldn’t stand anything much above 75. So, the air conditioner ran almost 24/7 when we had hot periods. I don’t know if it actually did anything to cool off the bedrooms, but perhaps just the sound of it was enough to make him feel cooler.

          I also have an attic fan which wasn’t operational last year or this year. In order to check on it, one must go up into the attic and clamber over all the joists to get to the fan. When it’s hot, whoever goes up there would most likely have heat stroke before reaching the back of the attic and returning to the opening. Not a good idea at times like this. Having the attic fan run and eliminate the heat from above goes a long way toward keeping the house cooler.

          There’s also the furnace fan which I turn on when the weather turns hot. It brings cool air from below and sends it throughout the house. To augment that, I leave the sliding glass door open until the sun reaches the deck and then I close it. At about 12:30 pm today, it was already 100 degrees on the deck by the slider. I also leave the door to the garage door open for a while. But, since there’s no insulation in the garage attic, it becomes hot out there as soon as the sun hits the roof. I keep it closed most of the time.

          This morning (Tuesday), I made a quick trip to the grocery store, mainly because I needed milk. I did get a couple of other things I can use and several that I didn’t need but bought anyway. I was very naughty in purchasing a pint of ice cream, a package of three ice cream bars and a box of cranberry-orange scones. It’s a good thing I rarely buy stuff like that or I’d end up weighing way more with a diabetic score that would be off the chart. Ah well, I’m old and deserve it regardless of how it affects my health.

          There seems to be a nice breeze outside at the moment. I think I’ll finish this, grab my I-pad and head for the hammock swing. I’m sure that without even trying very hard, I’ll swing myself to sleep before I can finish a single chapter. I deserve that too, being kept up so late because I was so hot. Here’s hoping your house was cooler than mine and that you slept well.

CROCOSMIA AND HERMITING

          There are two varieties of crocosmia in my garden. The photo shows the big red one, but the smaller orange one has yet to bloom. The orange one was given to me by a woman with whom I worked at the Primate Center back in the late ‘60s and early ‘70s. I had no idea it would replicate itself so much. I planted it in one area and have since moved it to where it seems to be quite happy.

          When I purchased the big red crocosmia, I also bought some small yellow bulbs, but to date they have not bloomed. Perhaps they won’t, but I’ll be on the lookout this year. What I was attempting to do when I planted the bulbs where they are now located, was to make an area around the pole the on which the magenta clematis grows. I also threw in some small allium that I dug up from other areas in the garden. I had this visual image of what I expected, but thanks to that &*#$%&*#^& alstromeria it didn’t happen this year. My image was the large crocosmia in the center and behind the pole, surrounded by the smaller crocosmia and alliums. With the exception of the large crocosmia, the alstromeria laid down on top of everything else.

          Since last Wednesday, I’ve talked to three people and that’s actually been fine. I didn’t walk Wednesday/Thursday/Friday or today (Monday). I did do my physical therapy on Thursday and again today. To be perfectly honest, I haven’t actually missed the human connection and am seriously considering just sheltering in place with only a trip to the grocery store once a week.

          It’s not that I don’t love my family and friends, it’s more that this continuing pandemic is scaring the absolute shit out of me. I cannot imagine how I would feel if I were to actually watch an entire newscast or read the newspaper each and every day. The 20 minutes of Good Morning America and the Good Morning email from CNN I receive every day provides enough information about all the craziness that’s going on around the world, and especially here in the US. And, of course, there’s the posts on Facebook…even when I page down, I get way more information than I want.

          Just when I think people cannot be so stupid, there’s just enough knowledge provided to make me realize that the human race is most likely bound for extinction within a short period of time. The latest items are (and I gained this only from small sound bites):

1.     Kanye West…he’s going to run for President. Doesn’t he realize that he’ll take votes away from the “Asshole’s” opponent? So, even if Biden wouldn’t be my first choice, to quote a great friend, “I’d vote for a potato if it meant defeating tRump.”

2.    tRump announced that coronavirus is going away and it will prove that he’s right…may not be his exact words, but that was the meaning. Really??? Has he no understanding of what death actually is? Does he think scientists are lying about this pandemic?

3.    People continue to protest. Protesting is fine with me, as I’ve stated before, but why does it have to become violent with people killed and/or injured and property destroyed. What good does that do absolutely anyone?

Please don’t get my message wrong here. I’m not feeling depressed as in I’d like to take the gaspipe, but I certainly don’t feel very hopeful for the future of this planet or the human race. So, aside from continuing to announce a new personal blog post each and every morning, I think I’m going to stop watching ANY news, reading any newspapers, and even paging down in Facebook. I’ll announce my blog post and close FB out. I also think I’ll defer any further walks or lunches or even phone conversations because…well, just because I can I guess. If I could take a selfie of me doing the Spock hand sign, I'd do so and ask you all to, “Live long and prosper.”

LAVENDER, SENIOR PROM, AND GORDY

          There are different kinds of lavender and the one growing in my yard has been there for a very long time. I always wanted to grow it in the mounds you see on lavender farms, but I never was able to achieve that with mine. It’s sort of a shrub that has an interesting shape and I encourage that by how I prune.

          Last year I didn’t sit down on the deck and cut off all the dead blossom stalks, nor did I take the time to prune out the dead wood. I was amazed over winter to see the little birds going to the lavender stalks and eating the seeds. I believe I’ll save any pruning until the spring from now on. I like to watch the birds.

          In the process of going through those photos through 1963, I also found the photo from my senior prom. I went with my boyfriend of two years who had graduated from the same high school in 1961. I think that’s how we met, although I can’t remember exactly now. I do know that I went steady with him my junior and senior years. He broke up with me right after I graduated…imagine that!!!

          His name was Gordy and when his parents bought a new Studebaker, he was given the old one. It was gray and there are times I see a Prius that I’m reminded of that old car. Gordy attended what was then known as Everett Junior College while I was in high school. If he finished in time, he would wait in his car outside the south entry to the high school and give me a ride home. I felt very special and grown up to have a boyfriend that wasn’t in high school.

          My parents really liked Gordy and trusted him with me, and he never did anything to betray their trust, not even when he got me drunk. I was a junior then and some of the basketball and football players took to having lunch at my table. Looking back, I think it was probably because I was so innocent and naive…”What, you drink?” That comment by me was met with hysterical laughter on their part. I also wonder if some of the stories they told were fiction just to see how wide my eyes would get.

          Anyway, I decided I wanted to get drunk. Gordy wasn’t for that idea at all, but when I insisted I’d find someone to get drunk with, he caved. So, he picked me up and stopped by a little store on the way to his house…his parents were at their lake house that weekend. I was amazed he could buy beer at that little store. I often went there to buy candy and soda. When he came out with a six-pack, I scoffed to myself. I mean, really, only six beers.

          Well, I didn’t like the taste of beer, so drank two rather quickly. Imagine my surprise to find myself on the way to being drunk. I don’t remember if I had a third one or not. I do remember all the inhibitions I’d had in the past went by the wayside. I was determined to get into Gordy’s pants and he was just as determined that I wouldn’t. Yes, there was lots of heavy petting, but no matter what I said or what I did, there was no way I was going to end up out of my panties.

Eventually, I think he’d had enough of my attempts and told me to sit right there on the couch while he got me something to eat. It wasn’t even 10:00 pm and I was drunk and the evening was pretty much over. He drove to Dick’s Drive-in on 45^th and came back with cheeseburgers and French fries which he insisted I eat. There was no way he was going to take me home drunk.

          My curfew was 1:00 am. I woke up on Gordy’s couch at about 12:30 am. There was a blanket over me, the TV was on, but I couldn’t see Gordy anywhere. When I sat up, I found him. He was laying on the floor next to the couch sound asleep. I woke him up and he took me home. We never drank together again during our relationship. I still don’t much like beer.

          As I mentioned above, Gordy’s parents had a summer home on Lake Goodwin. We had some wonderful times up there during the two summers we were together. One year, Gordy took me on a hike through the woods to a house he and his childhood lake friends had found a number of years before. It was amazing and kinda scary. It had been trashed a bit, but not much. You could still see the table was set for a meal, the pots and pans on the stove had dried stuff in them, and absolutely nothing had been removed from the house, at least as far as you could tell. It was like the four occupants (four table settings) had simply walked out the door and never returned. Gordy said when he and his friends had found it, it really looked like the people who lived there would return any minute, but they never did.

          The World’s Fair was in Seattle in 1962, and Gordy and I went to every single exhibition. I had (and may still have in the attic in my trunk), the little book that had maps and explanations and lists of all the various exhibits. I remember marking each and every one off as we went through the Fair. I think we went either two or three times in order to get it all in. I also remember thinking that we’d live in one of those futuristic houses together once we married. And, just look at our clothes…Gordy in a tie and moi in nylons and a skirt. Amazing how public expectations have changed since then.

          After we went to my senior prom, we drove down to the ocean. I was allowed to stay out all night and didn’t return home until late the next day. I think I got horribly sunburned even though it wasn’t very sunny. The prom was okay, but Gordy was being kinda weird, especially through the night and next day. I guess it was his way of saying goodbye because he never called me after that. And girls didn't call boys way back then.

          I didn’t see him or hear from him again until after John and I separated and AJ was almost two years old. I don’t remember how he got hold of me, but I agreed to meet him for coffee after work one day. We met at some place in the University District, and he hadn’t changed one single bit. He still wore khakis, rolled his shirtsleeves up and had the same hairstyle. I was on my way to becoming a hippie and was attired in the latest fashion…platform shoes, wide-legged pants. We had a nice chat, and he told me the reason he broke up with me was because he thought I’d want to get married right away.  He also said he’d seen my brother and asked my brother to tell me he was sorry, that I should call him so we could get back together. This supposedly happened a couple of months after prom weekend, but my brother never said a word.

          From that point on, Gordy would call me every few years to see how I was doing. John didn’t like his calling and I always made the conversations short. The last time Gordy called I could tell he was drunk as he was sometimes when he called. He was being morose about how the biggest mistake of his life was breaking up with me, how he still loved me, etc. Many times, these were the topics of his conversations. I told him I’d have to call him back and asked for his number. He couldn’t believe I didn’t remember what it was because he was living in his parent’s house.

          I called Gordy back the next day. I explained I wanted to talk to him when he was sober. I told him I had a husband, sons and a grandchild and that I had no intention of changing my life. I told him I was sorry his life didn’t turn out as he wanted/expected, but that he should not ever call me again. I told him my husband didn’t appreciate the phone calls. I haven’t heard from him since and looking at these photos, I wonder if he’s still alive, still living in his parents’ house down by the zoo.