TODAY, I'M MISSING YOU ALL

         

I just finished writing my birthday blog post but feel compelled to write this addendum. While I’m happy enough to be eighty, I’m also very sad. I miss all the loved ones that have crossed the rainbow bridge ahead of me. I cannot begin to express what it would mean to receive one last hug from grandma, mom, dad, and most especially John. 

          My birthday was celebrated by family and friends last Sunday and while I thought of missing family members, I especially missed John. Somehow, all the hugs and good wishes I received that day (and since) didn’t fill the void his absence has left. Again, I cannot express what it would mean to have his arms around me, his body pressed tightly to me, and his lips against mine. I can almost hear his voice as he wishes me Happy Birthday. But that’s not ever going to happen unless there really is a rainbow bridge and he’s waiting on the other side.

          So, while memories don’t exactly do much to keep me warm, at least I have countless great ones from all the years past. These thoughts of family members, and especially of John, bring me comfort and make me smile on this special day.