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Saturday, January 24, 2026

A GREAT DAY!

          


 Thursday was a GREAT day. Kuma went to Hippie Hounds for a spa day and I returned home to clean, clean, clean. I felt really good, having completed a number of items on my “todo” list. Then, it came time for bed…what a huge disappointment.

          I got ready for bed as I always do and Kuma and I climbed into bed, ready to call it a day. He was tired from his spa adventure and I was tired from all the cleaning. Kuma didn’t have a problem going right to sleep. Moi, on the other hand couldn’t seem to find sleep no matter how hard or easy I tried. It SUCKED.

          It was after 3:00 am before I finally sort of dozed off. My Fitbit says I slept way longer than that, but I don’t think it reads correctly when the only thing that’s moving is my eyes…open, close, open, close, hour after hour.  I tried leaving the TV on, turning it off, turning it back on, all to no avail.

I even tried writing a new Madeleine chapter in my head. That didn’t help either because her adventure just made me wish I could spend some time with Spence…naked and pleasing each other immensely. I don’t recommend thinking about having GREAT sex if you are trying to go to sleep.

Anyway, I’m writing this the following morning for posting on Saturday. I’m seriously tired, but going to my exercise class anyway and then on to lunch with a friend. The only good result from such a lack of sleep…well there may be two…is that I’ll probably sleep like a dead person tonight and I just have to type out Madeleine’s and Spence’s new experience.

Don’t wait eagerly for that chapter…it’s going to be either six or seven…remember, patience is a virtue.

Friday, January 23, 2026

A NEW ENDEAVOR???

           


I began what I’m posting below a couple of years ago and then put it aside. I don’t yet have a title for it, and it may not ever get finished. However, maybe posting a first chapter will give me the impetus to continue…or at least dwell on the life of Madeleine rather moi.

CHAPTER 1 

Madeleine couldn’t believe she had scored an in-person interview, especially since her work background was so sketchy, but she was very grateful to be seated in the elegant reception area of the Lorax Company. She gazed around the room, noting the beautiful art on the walls, the cushy carpet on the floor and the kind of furniture that made you want to curl up with a good book. She even found the colors pleasing…a soft silvery gray with accents of bright and bold orange and blue in the pillows and beautiful glass items placed on dark wood tables around the room. She was so lost in her thoughts about the décor she didn’t hear her name called. When she did, she realized the individual waiting on her was a bit annoyed she hadn’t responded by jumping up immediately. Ah well, Maddie thought as she followed the beautifully dressed and coiffed woman down the hall.

Spencer was seated at his desk, working away when his soon-to-be-ex-assistant knocked and opened the door. He stood and waited while Sharon came into the room followed by a woman whose appearance was the exact opposite of Sharon’s.

“Spencer, this is Madeleine Marlow. She is your next interview for the position as your Executive Assistant. Ms. Marlow, this is Mr. Spencer Lomax.”

Madeleine took a very shallow deep breath and walked across the carpet toward the very tall and very attractive man behind the desk. He stood, held out his hand and she surrendered her much smaller one to his grasp. Almost immediately, there was a tingle up her arm. She felt as though she’d been zapped by a live wire and her eyes opened wide. She pulled her hand back as quickly as she was able and watched Mr. Lomax. His eyes, too, had widened at the contact and he reflexively rubbed his hand on his pants.

“Ms. Marlow, I’m delighted to meet you. Why don’t we move to the sitting area? It’s much less formal and I find it makes me as well as the interviewee feel more comfortable.” Seated, he continued, “I found your resume very interesting. Could we begin by having you tell me a bit about yourself?”

Maddie cleared her throat and sat up straight. “I realize employers no longer are allowed to ask certain questions, but I believe the more information one provides, the easier it is to reach a decision. I’m twenty-nine years old, and as you saw on my resume, graduated from college magna cum laude with a degree in marketing as well as art studies. I didn’t look for employment immediately because my aunt, the woman who raised me, was diagnosed with a serious cancer. Even though she didn’t want me to put my life on hold, I loved her dearly and made the decision to care for her until she either got well or passed. She died this past spring. I spent the following months clearing out her home and executing the instructions she left in her will. Now, I’m free to pursue a life of my own which I hope includes a career as the right hand of the CEO of a company like Lorax.”

“You realize your lack of employment history is a serious impediment to qualifying for and obtaining an Executive Assistant position?”

“Yes, I certainly do; however, I strongly believe I am far more capable of providing the assistance you would need than my resume would indicate. In fact, I so strongly believe in my abilities that I’m willing to work for you for a week gratis and if you’re not satisfied with my performance at the end of that time, I’ll go on my way. But, if my work is more than satisfactory, then I’d expect you to hire me full-time and pay me for the week I spent on probation.”

Spencer looked at Maddie and back at the resume he held in his hand. “It says here you know shorthand. I didn’t think they taught that skill any longer.”

“My aunt taught me and practically worked my fingers to the bone drilling me on my ability until she believed I was more than competent. I know it certainly came in handy during my college years as well as toward the end of her life when the doctors or nurses had extensive instructions for me about her care.”

Spencer stood up, indicating the interview was at an end. As he walked her to the door, he told her he had a couple more applicants to interview and would definitely get back to her regardless of his decision. Maddie thanked him, offered her hand wondering if there would be another zing. It was there and Spencer held on to her hand for a bit before releasing it, all the time looking into her eyes.

Maddie resisted the urge to rub her hand on her skirt until she was safely in the elevator. Even then, rubbing her hand hard against the material didn’t totally eliminate the small electrical charge she still felt. She wondered why Mr. Lomax affected her in such a way. No one, man or woman had ever before given her such a feeling. She rather liked it and wondered what would happen if she was actually hired. As the elevator doors opened on the first floor, she shrugged her shoulders and walked out, thinking she wouldn’t be back there any time soon. Mr. Lomax undoubtedly need someone with lots of experience.

Spencer was again seated behind his desk and thinking about Madeleine Marlow. Her appearance was the opposite of any of the candidates he’d seen so far. She’d worn a summer suit of obviously very good quality, but it looked as though it was a size or two bigger than she would need. The sleeves went down to her hands and the collar of the blouse was close around the neck. The suit skirt was fairly long and the shoes she wore were more like something a much older woman would wear. Then there was her hair and total lack of make-up, or at least it certainly didn’t appear as though she were wearing any. Her hair looked to be a beautiful color, neither blond nor red, but a combination of the two. She had it pulled back so tightly into a thick bun at the base of her head, it was really hard to see what it might actually look like loose. He found he’d very much like to see that hair loose; and he expected it would be fairly long considering the bun’s size. Her eyes were large when opened wide and a blue so dark it almost looked black. Spencer thought her eyes would be her best feature if she wore a little make-up and darkened the reddish-gold lashes with mascara. And, finally, what about that little zap he got both times their hands met. It didn’t exactly go directly to his cock, but it did make him wonder what it would feel like to press himself against her from head to toe. What kind of a zap would he feel then?

“Earth to Spence, earth to Spence.” His assistant said barely keeping the irritation out of her voice. “Here’s your next interviewee. Ms. Ralston, this is Mr. Lomax.”

The following day, when Spence rendered his decision about who to hire to replace Sharon, she appeared horrified. “You can’t possibly be serious about hiring that Marlow woman.” She almost spit out the words. “She doesn’t have any experience to speak of and I don’t know if they still use the word dowdy, but she’d be right at home in the dictionary as an example. I also still don’t understand why you have to replace me. And, okay, I got a bit out of line on a personal basis, but I can promise that won’t happen ever again. Let’s just stop this process and leave things as they are.”

“Sharon, we’ve already been through this several times. I know you’re sorry for your actions and I do trust that you’d never make that kind of mistake with me again. The problem is me. I feel very awkward around you now and part of that awkwardness I feel is because I really wanted, and still want if I’m being honest, to take complete advantage of all you offered. But I cannot and will not. And, I cannot and will not continue to work with you feeling as uncomfortable as I do.”

Sharon sighed and said, “I know it’s all my fault and I do appreciate the great recommendation and severance package you’re giving me, but I did and do so love this job.”

“In that case, get ready to share your knowledge with Ms. Marlow. I’m going to call her and tell her to report for work on Monday. I know you think this is a mistake, but she impressed me with her desire to be hired. She offered to work for free for a week and if I’m not impressed and don’t want to hire her at the end, she’ll walk away. Anyone who thinks they are that good and is willing to put themselves out there like that deserves a chance. And, Sharon, don’t you dare try to make her life a misery or make sure she doesn’t succeed. If you aren’t professional and helpful, I’ll void the letter of recommendation and severance package and simply fire you. Understood.”

Sharon acquiesced even though it made her quite angry. If she’d had her way, she’d have done everything possible to make the Marlow woman fail. At least that way, she’d continue in her position for a while longer and just maybe Spence would change his mind. Ah well she thought, maybe she’ll manage to fail on her own.

Maddie was curled up in her favorite chair with a soft blanket, her cat and a great mystery when her phone rang. She picked it up and said hello, expecting it to be another nuisance call.

“Hello Ms. Marlow. This is Spencer Lomax and I’ve called to tell you I’m accepting your offer to work for a week for free to see if it’s possible for you to meet the job requirements. Hello, are you there Ms. Marlow?

When Maddie realized who was on the phone, she’d sat up so fast her blanket, book and cat tumbled to the floor. She couldn’t believe what she was hearing. “Yes, I’m here, just surprised to hear from you. I know there were undoubtedly a number of applicants much more qualified than me. When shall I report for work?”

“Be in the office at 8:00 am on Monday. Sharon, my current assistant, is expecting you and will begin the training. There won’t be any need for a visit to Human Resources until you are actually hired, if you are hired. We’ll deal with that then.”

“Thank you so much Mr. Lomax. You have no idea how much I’m looking forward to showing you what I am capable of doing. You aren’t going to be disappointed; I promise you. Goodbye.”

Maddie scooped up her annoyed feline and danced around the room which only made the cat even more unhappy. When she flopped back into her chair, she held and petted the cat until he was purring. “How about that Topper? How about that? I’m going to have a job. I know you aren’t going to like it because you’ll be here all day by yourself, but I’m so happy. Promise I’ll give extra pets and hugs every evening. Oh, Topper, this is so exciting.”

Thursday, January 22, 2026

TO BLOG OR NOT TO BLOG

         


Somehow, I thought that writing and posting to my blog just once a day would be a breeze. After all, I’m a very fast typer but unfortunately not a fast thinker or at least unable to think as fast as I type. My problem with writing and posting is, I think, two-fold. First, I don’t want to be boring and second, I don’t’ want to use this merely to whine about whatever is annoying me at the moment.

          So, what does that leave me with when it comes to writing and blogging. I’m not altogether sure. It’s not like I’m living a hugely exciting life. I’m not traveling anywhere, don’t have a lover, or even a close male friend, haven’t assumed any new bad or good habits, and don’t participate in any activities that are noteworthy. In fact, my life is quite boring and I wouldn’t read anything written by me if I were the reader as opposed to the writer.

          Not only that, but I’m having a very hard time keeping a positive attitude for a variety of reasons. I guess the biggest reason for my negativity is the fact that there is just me, myself and I when it comes to the day-to-day living. I suppose I should be proud of myself for being able to move along without having much in the way of constructive criticism or having anyone that tells me how great I am. Still, it would be good to receive a pat on the back now and then…more now than then.

          I find myself wondering if other people (women mostly I guess) reach a point in their lives, as I seem to have reached in mine, where there doesn’t seem to be much of a point or reward for getting through each and every day. True, I have Kuma who provides me with lots of affection and attention, but it’s not the same as the affection and attention garnered from family and friends thirty or forty years ago.

          It’s as though I’ve reached a plateau where I sit, just me myself and I, waiting for the final chapter of my life. Should I not wake up tomorrow, just how many people would actually miss me going forward. As it stands now, with the exception of a very few, I truly believe I could slip off that plateau and be missed by fewer people than the fingers on one hand. That idea makes me rather sad.

          I guess you could say I’m having a pity party for myself as I write this. I believe it’s mainly because I don’t feel very clever or original when it comes to blog posting. It was supposed to be something fun, that would engage my creative side and provide me with some positivity in my life…don’t think that’s actually happening.

          So, I guess I’ll go ahead and put this up for tomorrow’s publication. Whether I continue to add to this blog on a daily basis feels like a mystery at this point. Perhaps a good night’s sleep, the elimination of things on  my “to do” list, and a huge effort on my part to look through rose-colored glasses might make it all better...or that's at least my hope.

Wednesday, January 21, 2026

CRANKY FURNACE???

      


    John and I had what I would call a partnership marriage, at least for the most part. Just yesterday morning, I was wishing I had my partner close to hand. That’s the crummy thing about being a widow (and maybe a widower as well). When your partner is no longer available, it leaves a hole (many holes) in your (my) life.

          After eating my breakfast, I went to get ready for the day. That’s when I realized the house was pretty cold. And it’s frosty and cold outside as well. I checked the thermostat and it said it was 63 degrees. It should say that it’s 68 degrees. I messed around with the dang thing, but the furnace didn’t come on. This is worrisome.

          I went to the furnace closet and the exhaust pipe (I think that’s what it is) was COLD. It didn’t appear the furnace was working. So, I flipped a switch. There are two and I can’t now remember which one I flipped. I think it was the one for the fan which I turn on in the summer when it’s hot outside. Anyway, the furnace rumbled to life and is still going strong about thirty minutes later. The house is warming up.

          This is where having John available would be very desirable. I know nothing about furnaces. That would have been his side of the partnership, a side I never needed to know much about. I did try to call AJ, but he didn’t answer so I just hung up. I’ll have to talk to him later and see what he has to say about the furnace…he’s an HVAC guy

          Meanwhile, this furnace was installed in 2001, so it’s twenty-five years old. When John thought the furnace was making noise in the middle of the night (it was a water hammer) about ten years ago, AJ completely rebuilt the dang thing over three weekends. As far as I know, he didn’t provide a warranty; and had he even done so, I’m sure it would have expired by now.

          When I began this year’s blog, I believe I posted about what I might need to replace in 2026. I think it was a refrigerator and this computer. I guess I need to amend that list and add a new furnace; but only if my HVAC savvy son is unable to keep it going. Still, I wish I had an inhouse partner to help with some of the stuff that needs attention. I sincerely hate having to be the sole responsible person.

Tuesday, January 20, 2026

"WHAT ME WORRY?"

 


          I guess it’s a good thing I’m doing this blog mostly for my own enjoyment as well as an effort to put some form of stability or routine in my life. It also might be an effort to see just how badly my memory is doing…or good. I’m sure you’d like to know what brought this revelation to light.

          Just the other day…and maybe many other days…I was trying to tell a story about something that happened in my life. As I was recalling and telling, I realized I wasn’t sure about the information I was sharing. Did it happen then? Did it happen like that? Was I mixing up that story with another story? Ah, who the hell knows…I certainly didn’t seem to. So, I gave up telling the story, but it made me more aware of what’s happening in my head…or not happening.

         Should I be overly concerned about this lapse…and others I’ve had/am having? I’m not exactly sure. I do know my own name, where I live, how to get about the streets of my community (and beyond), my financial information, and tons of other information necessary for day-to-day life. It’s the past information I seem to be having a hard time accessing, recalling, or sharing.

          I always thought that as I aged, my memories of long ago would become sharper and clearer rather than not, at least that’s what I’d always heard. And yes, there are definitely memories from my past that remain clear and that I could share without missing a beat.

          So, I guess I’ll choose to not worry about those momentary…or longer…lapses in memory. I guess as long as the important memories remain fresh and available, there’s no need to worry. Rather, when I can’t recall my name, address, bank account and fail to pay my bills, eat, shop, all the normal daily activities, then I should worry…or will the ability to worry leave as well…I certainly hope so because I don’t think I want to know when someone else steps in to run my life. 

          Think I’ll take a lesson from Alfred E. Neuman…”What, me worry?”

Monday, January 19, 2026

ZIP, ZERO, ZILCH


Nothing to say today. Just blogging to say I’ve blogged today. I’ll try to do better in the coming days.

Sunday, January 18, 2026

GRANDDAUGHTER MOVES ON

           


My granddaughter has asked me to not talk about her on Facebook, and maybe not on my blog as well, but sometimes I just have to. This is probably because I am so very proud of the young women she has become. And it’s not like her parents have handed her everything on a silver platter, but they did instill an amazing work ethic in this kid.

          What brings her to the forefront of my thoughts at the moment is the fact she has moved into an apartment. By the end of the weekend, she’ll be joined by her significant other, but for almost two weeks, she’s been living on her very own and loving, loving, loving it. I’m sure she’ll love it when he moves in with her as well.

          I could go on for pages about this young woman even were she not my granddaughter. She sailed though high school, taking AP courses and finished almost a year before her actual graduation day. Not to sit back and be bored, she went to a community college and achieved a welding degree. If that wasn’t enough, she decided she’d like to go away to school, so applied to Wyotech in Wyoming to study diesel mechanics. She left there able to work on diesel engines.

          Her true love, if you can call it that, was, however, welding, so she’s been working as a welder for the last two or three years. She met her significant other at school in Wyoming and he, fortunately, lives in the area. Since her return, they’ve been moving between his dad’s house and her parents.

          Now, they’re setting up housekeeping together…is it okay to say housekeeping like that these days??? In any case, my wonderful granddaughter is off on a new adventure, that of being a totally independent adult. Based on her past accomplishments, I know whatever her future holds will be absolutely amazing.

          So, granddaughter, sorry for writing about you again…but dang it, I’m just so fucking  proud of you…so there!!!